Aka Ironyca Stood in the Fire – gaming blog
I have it installed, but if I put it on “Current Fight”, I would be ogling my damage output to a degree I would be performing worse. Especially if I fall behind everyone else, I get stressed and feel inferior, so I make sure to keep these numbers invisible to myself during the fight.
After the fight, I have a sense of how my performance was, if my casting was tight, my movement and reactions quick and alert. And here’s the issue: Sometimes, the feeling of having done EVERYTHING I could possibly do to perfection, doesn’t relate at all to the sight of the damage meter.
Some fights I absolutely love. I’m at the top of my game, everything from mana to procs are done to perfection. I had this experience at our first kill of Omnitron Defence System, and have had every time since.
We learned the fight fairly quickly, it’s so rhythmic and smooth to me, and despite the fact it requires momentary spurts of movement, it doesn’t feel penalizing when playing an elemental shaman. After the first successful kill of this boss, I switched Recount back on, and I topped. Every time we do this fight, I’m a real spacegoat zapping around, and I always do well – my experience of having done well was reflected on the damage meter.
This is not always the case.
The Valiona and Theralion fight is a feeling of doing everything I can while continuously disappointing myself on the meters.
Every time we do this encounter, I’m thinking “this time I must have done well”, but I’m always middle if not bottom of the dps’ers. My experience of having done well was not reflected by the damage meter – damn!
Then there’s Halfus Wyrmbreaker, a fight where I often have to interrupt a lot, and generally spend the entire fight staring at his cast bar.
I hate this fight, it’s not at all pleasurable for me. Contrary to Omnitron, I’m now sweating nervously. Looking at the damage output after this one, I’m in the top two, but I feel like I did shit, gaps of time flapping around and what not. I am baffled that I yet seem to do good damage. My experience of having done badly was not reflected by the damage meter.
And then there’s Ascendant Council, a fight where I feel like I do badly and yes, I also did shit on Recount. Baah I hate this fight. My experience of having done badly was reflected by the damage meter.
And here’s the point of this post: When I reflect on my performance of the raid and my damage was low, I feel I could have done better, even if the fight is favoring dot-heavy classes or melee. No matter how much I felt I pushed as hard as I could, and indeed kept out of the fire, reacted well to everything, the final number prevails.
It’s like I am being controlled by Recount – by my damage output, as if this is the only measure of how well I did this fight, which I know it isn’t. This isn’t openly part of the attitude of my raid group, it’s me who’s become obsessed with the numerical result of a fight instead of the fact we killed the boss in itself, or that I healed and rescued myself or someone else, or that someone did an amazing stunt etc etc.
Addons that are not part of the original Blizzard WoW package can still change the game fundamentally – how we play, how we talk about the game and how we treat each other within the game. Think about the dreaded Gearscore, which basically is now implemented in the form of “Itemlevel”, used primarily as a gateway controller. Turning someone down has never been easier.
Recount is also one such addon. An amazing utensil regardless, but ultimately not just a mirror of your own performance, but also a surveillance tool. Am I actually scrutinizing myself based on the fact I know everyone else in my raid can see how I did, and that this account adds up into a whole legacy of my skill as a player and thus my worth as a raider – how capable I am to push through in general?
Then again, I see Recount meters being published at random if not requested quite often from strangers in pugs… so weird when some people don’t have it installed, yet appear completely preoccupied by it.
I recall being a noob wanding through Karazhan, being called out on my ignorance and lack of raid ethos – now I’m one of them, watching meters myself.
I’m tempted to ask – is it part of the WoW culture to be obsessed with damage meters in a simplistic way like me? And I wonder what the next big epoch-making addon will be…