Ironyca Stood in the Fire

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Did I Paint Myself Into a Corner?

In 2011 I wrote about the educational path I had chosen and whether that choice actually meant I had painted myself into a corner.

Performance artist Keith Haring painting himself into a corner - almost like me!

Performance artist Keith Haring painting himself into a corner – almost like me!

Now I’m fully graduated, I hold an IT degree which usually makes people vastly overestimate how skilled I actually am at programming and fixing all kinds of computer problems, because well… I did study computer games, but not exactly how to make them. Because it comes across as an extremely narrow thing which doesn’t scream usefulness the same way studying fx. medicine does, people translate my education into “some IT”.

The Keith Haring performance piece was basically the feeling I had as I was progressing through my education. I had previously experienced unemployment with “only” a bachelor degree in communications and psychology, and finding a job at that time was very difficult. I perceived myself as a jack of all trades, master of none. I was never the perfect candidate for any job, and it bothered me.

The consequence of this experience became that I wanted to be more specialized, I wanted to read a job advert and think “I’m perfect for this! How could they NOT want to hire me?”. So I chose games studies.

The fear of not being able to find the right shelf was still bothering me, and the closer I was to graduation the more I started looking at my time at the university as a few really brilliant years, which probably wouldn’t amount to anything special later on. Because of the recent economic crisis, newspapers were (and still are) flooding with stories of lay offs and at times it robbed me of my motivation to work on my thesis. It felt like it was meaningless anyways, I would have no chance at building a career in a society that was in economic turmoil, so what was the point?

Keith Haring painting into corner2

Look! He made it!

Thankfully, I feel a lot more qualified than last time I was in this situation and I’m not as low as I expected I would be. Now I nag at myself for not enjoying the thesis-writing process more, instead of worrying about the future. If only I knew then, what I know now.

With that in mind, I’ve had to remind myself of what Søren Kierkegaard once said:

“Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards”

(For the Danish speakers, the original quote is a lot more elegant: “Livet forstås baglæns, men må leves forlæns“)

Not long ago I attended a job search meeting, with a lot of other recent graduates and a few who had been in the work market for years, but had just lost their jobs. At some point we were instructed to introduce ourselves to the others around the table. Besides me, there was an art historian, a sociologist, an anthropologist, a psychologist, a biologist and one who did something with health care.

The subsequent conversation revolved almost entirely around me and what my education was about. They were all so positive and I got so many references and tips. It was such a strange experience, I had longed to be like them, studying something tangible like psychology or sociology, with a simple title that people understand and yet here I was being treated like the special butterfly.

Nobody inquired the sociologist nor the anthropologist. I guess people assume they know what that is about. My strategy of going for something more narrow in terms of education, but perhaps also unusual, worked in the sense that people got curious. I’m hoping this will help me in my future endeavours.

Afterwards the two older women at the table (the biologist and psychologist) pep talked me for half an hour and showed so much interest in my current situation (I’m telling you, I have a strange appeal to women in their 50′s, they always like me a lot).

So I ended up leaving that meeting feeling like the most successful unemployed person in the world – A walking oxymoron!

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2 comments on “Did I Paint Myself Into a Corner?

  1. Vaneeesa Blaylock
    February 11, 2013

    WoW, Ironyca Lee, the world’s most successful unemployed Minecraft blogger! It just doesn’t get any better than that. I’m not sure it will really put any greater lustre on your circumstances, but hey, my big news is that I got a haircut! :P

    http://irez.me/2013/02/10/jane-mcgonigal-in-my-tanning-bed/

    In my post I mention that Yordie putting me in the same sentence with Jane McGonigal was pretty exciting… and lookie you… you just put yourself in the same post with Haring & Kierkegaard, even as the prestigious author of the Minecraft Codex, that’s pretty cool company!

    I think I’m about to do a tangent, but that whole 80′s NYC art scene is such a bittersweet moment – all the energy that Haring & Basquiat & Madonna & all those peeps had… then a little while later Haring died from AIDS, Basquiat from drugs, and, well, the artworld marches on of course, but that early magic moment of the art of the street took quite a blow.

    Maybe (just did a switchback, but with my own strength, not a Lance Armstrong drug enhanced switchback) you can do a little public friendly overview of your thesis for iRez – what Minecraft lover wouldn’t be thrilled by that! (that probably sounded sarcastic, but the thing to know about me, which I’m sure you already do know, is that when I sound serious I’m probably being sarcastic, and when I sound sarcastic, I’m probably being serious)

    ALL of which is just my long rambling way of saying CONGRATULATIONS! Be the job market kind or cruel, you’ve totally achieved something special. If you’ll forgive my using the royal “we”… WE are monumentally proud of YOU!

    Congratulations Ms. Lee!

    xoxo

    • Ironyca
      February 12, 2013

      Haha thanks, a classic V comment!
      I’m still so bored of that thesis topic, but one day I’ll summarize some quick points. I’ll say as much that it wasn’t about Minecraft, but social network games. Less street cred, but a lot of people’s secret pleasure.
      Now I just need LEGO to hire me already!

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Old computer science textbook from The Old Town in Århus, '74 section. Wore dark lenses on Halloween to see how my colleagues reacted. My natural eye colour is blue. Some didn't notice anything different. Some could barely look me in the eye, cause it freaked them out. This book has been recommended to me by several people. Time to get started!

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